Wishing UpON a sTAR
bored.
watched a few anime.. and a few books. bored. can somebody entertain me...? i feel lonely. i feel.. abandoned. guess it's not necessarily a good thing to finish exam earlier than others. guess.... i happened to be those poor souls who are not used to slack life.
anyway, i went to jog today. it's been quite sometimes since i last jogged and i din jog for long. after i ran for a round, i had a cramp on my right leg. (sigh. cramps are so commonly to me nowaday. sometimes at the back, sometimes on the arms.. toes... every part of me... getting old i guess) so i started walking and admiring the surrounding and the sky..
i took down my spec and looked at the sky. the sky looked magnificent to me. the pattern of the cloud.. the tone and the colour of the sky.. u can't tell whether there is formation among the clouds or just a random thing.. was that baby blue or light blue? hmm... sky looked good...
and the surrounding looked especially good without clear vision. i could see the trees swayed as the breeze passed.. i could hear kids laughing nearby.. i felt quite peaceful.. but i knew i wasn't...
terrible things are running through my mind till now. they have been clouding my mind. i couldn't really think properly. and eventually, it led me to question myself...
"am i suitable to be in a relationship? am i mature enough?"
it's daunting to know if u're not mature enough to handle relationship when u're in one. it's worse when u're in a relationship for 2 years.
i wish i am mature enough.. i hope i am. can someone tell me i am mature enough?
i pray that God will give me an answer.. soon
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9:28 PM.
