Wishing UpON a sTAR
what's with the kids nowaday?
was surfing the net and chanced upon blogs by some of the kids from my church.
what's wrong with them? sigh. poor kids, talking about stabbing of heart, not trusting love anymore. kinda sad to hear that. isn't that saddening to hear someone doesn't believe in love anymore?
i guess they are still immature... one moment said, thank god to have that happy moment though it was short, another said love doesn't exist in the world anymore, and they feel like dying. contradict right? but then again, when one is over the cloud, everything is possible in their heart. and when they are heartbroken, as in, felt that stab in their hearts, whatever anyone said to them hurt. but they just can't rem the things they said. hmmm.. just like me. when i was upset, all the happy moments seem to hurt even more.
so perhaps, it's not that they are immature. guess it's just not the time for them to handle such a complicated matter- love. they are not strong enough to handle such a blow... they have no clue to how to handle the situation, they are terribly lost i guess... when u grow older, things could be better handled i believe...
last week was a hell week. but it was the hell week, that i truly felt God was with me...
a short update of what happened last week...
- monday-
had I.A presentation. one of the member wanted to add her parts, so she cut and paste... and left a slide of mine.. so ya. one of my slides were missing. luckily i was bored, and got nothing better to do on sunday night. so i actually printed out the slides and could read it out from them. so embarrassing. always screw up for I.A. presentation. but well.. at least i had the content..
- tuesday-
unproductive meeting with I.A. group. members DID NOT prepare at all. only i prepared. dunno what they did for the past one hour when i met them an hour later.
cramp. stuck outside of the house for 2 hours, lonely... felt the overwhelming of information to study for psy on friday. stressed. cried.
calmed after i did QT.
very very disappointed with eugene. very upset with him. just can't seem to be around when i needed him. din go for tuition. changed to friday
11pm meeting online. ended at 12+...
- wedneday-
mid term exam for managerial planning. ok la. but i dun understand why some of then can write so much... studied psy at home. things kinda cleared up between me and eugene after 28 hours of cold war.
- Thursday-
pon APb tutorial, studied at home to rush through the rest of the chapters for psy. at 10+, i left with 2 chapters, introductory and the last, was thinking whether to study for the last chapter. then i remembered- involve god in ur life, in all kind of decisions. so i prayed to lord, flipped the coin. 1st time, dun study. =) second time, study= (, third time and forth time- study. = ( so i concluded that since LOrd wanted me to study. i should. shouldn't doubt God. and i did. unwillingly.
- Friday-
AND GUESS WHAT, psy test covered everything i studied and nothing from introduction chapter! woohoo~ i love God. = ) then meeting after test, which ended at 5... qiyan sent me to kovan. ate dinner at home and left tuition at 7pm. lost my earpiece that nice.
- Saturday-
went to tutorial at 3-4. not very useful i felt. late for church. just in love to eat yusheng with the church ppl. then.. went to pa tor with eugene. finally. after so long.
we went to eat at ramen ramen at dhoby ghaut. ok la. think aljisen nicer. then watched the pursuit of happyness. nice story, but a bit draggy.
remember Gardner said something to his son. he was telling his son not to play basketball and that it had no future. Christopher looked rejected and threw the ball away. then gardner said to his son, "dont' never let somebody tell you you can't do something... if you got a dream, protect it... if you want something, go get it" little chris gave him a blank yet as though he understood look. haha...
then... there was this christian song. hmmm.. quite touching too. guess the burden was too huge on him then. the scene which he looked totally lost in the toilet was heartbreaking too.. will smith is a good actor. a real good one.
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7:58 PM.
