Wishing UpON a sTAR
it's when u're so close to someone that all the expectations and emotions are magnified. saw this nick from jing the great. and i tot, how apt. guess this was all happening between Man and their close ones. Just like, eugene expects me to do well better, and me expects dawn and stella to report to me. and when all these expectations fail, one or more parties become upset. yes, i know all these sound wrong, but it's damn true. it's how the whole world function. i still get a little bit crossed tt i am the last person on earth to know dawn is attached back to amos. but well, she din wan me to know, so be it. i remained ignorant until one day i asked sam. yes, dawn sin say anything to me till now, but it's ok. it doesn't matter i guess.. and when she's sad and down again she will come and talk to me again... sigh. i think i am stupid and STUPID.
oh well. should we expect less from on? perhaps we should since we know tt there is no point in expecting anything when u know sometimes expectation JUST won't be met? sound sad huh? like before u start expecting something, it's already termed as failure. haha.. so should we continue to place high expectation, and when it fails, hurt us more?
i guess i am dumb enough to choose the second one. i place high expectation on u, is becoz i love u, it is becoz i feel that i am close to u enough to have high expectation on u. if everything fails, doesn't work out as expected, it's ok. perhaps u think u're not as close to me as i tot yet, perhaps u think this doesn't matter. but still, i love u, coz' u're my buddy.
doubts are cleared, but i guess all the weird, unbelievable things follow u wherever u go. so i believe u.
eugene has gone for like 4 days. somehow i feel tt he's being away for super long. miss him. and i am really glad tt he still sms me as often as when he's in camp in singapore. i told him once tt it's all too expensive to communicate like this, he said, "for you, it's all worth it." ^_^ touched my heart. but still ache for him when his bill come...
anyway, guess wat! my neighbour just told me mom this incident. which freaked me out a little.
her daughter reached home at 2+am the other night, as she walked out of the lift, she saw a dark shadow or a man in black standing at a corner. and as she was walking to her home, tt black thing FOLLOWED her. when she turned and looked, he turned and looked as though he was walking away. but she knew HE WAS following her! so she immediately opened her door and told her parents about it (they always sleep very late one. so by then, they hadn't slept yet). so the parents came out to look for him. and tt THING has disappeared!
freaky, right!? mom said no more going out late, unless there are ppl accompanying me to the footstep! have reported to eugene. MEI! if u read this, u get wat i mean. hahahaha
i've still got gek test. sucks. hate it. did i tell u how much i hate it?!
YAWNS.
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