Wishing UpON a sTAR
decided to drop a post here.. in case u guys think i committed sucide or sth..
anyway, i am fine, especially after much rambling, whining and complaining. though he's still outfield (yes, he's going outfield for another 4 days), i am kind of ok with it. guess i am emotionally more stable now.
perhaps it's becoz' i finally got to see him on saturday. it's been so so so long since i last seen him. it felt like a decade. hmmm.. and i was really glad to see him. though we ate dinner with church ppl, but he sent me home! so at least there was some private time together and talked...
i've been hearing alot of breakups again these few days. did i become more sensitive or such things are common when u're at this age? and i tot of all my friends who broke up with their partners.. i was trying to think how they felt, how they tot about the whole thing.
i have friends who glad breakup with their ex and spark on a new relationship very soon after that. i dun see tt as bad thing. maybe to outsiders, it may appear tt this person is such an ass as to two-time a person. but i think if IF the relationship was already unstable and love has faded, wat for sticking to each other becoz' of some old pledge/promise u made when u were deeply in love with one another. so may as well cut off tie early before things turn sour and can't even be friends anymore. oh well.. and this phenomenon usually happens more often when guy is in army, girls in uni. tt's a sad true.
i also have friend who is being ditched by jerk. she cried, i felt that pain. i think i will never understand how it really feel. guess tt really hurt. the pain, the betrayal, the sense of loss, insecurity, those overwhelming feelings. well.. i din do much for this friend. she was kind of busy, and i was useless in dealing with such things. but i am glad tt i can be there when she was crying and needed a shoulder to lie on.
oh, and i also have friends who think their love were fading, and broke up. and only to realise tt, THAT breakup shouldn't even take place. coz' i think they realise sth they din know before. they realise that they can't really live without each other. and it hurts to live without each other, minding their own business and can't be part of tt person's life anymore. tt's sad isn't it? so why din they think carefully before they do tt? hmmm.. perhaps Man are like tt, we must suffer alittle only to realise wat should be done, and wat shouldn't be done. i am glad they are kind of back together again. ^_^
hmmm.. and i have friends, really nice girls initiated breakups with their boyfriends. and the thing is, they are supposed to be the so called golden-couple. those couples tt are lovely and look really compatible together. i guess the girls really have enough.. but then paul reminded me something strong today. i think the guys feel sux. they must have feel like shit. it's like they dun wan to let go, but being all nice gentleman and great lover, they will be acting like if-u-are-happier-that-way-i-am-happy-too. wat the... THAT'S NOT THE WAY TO DO IT LO. i always think tt the guys should always try to salvage a relationship. especially if its the girl who initiated the breakup! coz' girls are more soft-hearted aND u must have done something really stupid to make her angry. nice girls dun say breakup for fun! and u must have really broke her heart, tt's why she wan a clear cut with u! so amend the mistake and TURN OVER A NEW LEAF! dun let a good girl go! tt's why i always tell eugene, if one day, i will to initiate breakup with him, he must not let me go! he must hug me and tell me he love me! hahaha.. then i will be all melted and say, "ok, u dun do tt again k". hahahah... *drama. hope tt day will never come though!
woo.. so much of analysis... thursday should be covering on studies. more whine and complain. stay tune.
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