Wishing UpON a sTAR
finally got my om slot. which is equally sux.
tuesday 3-4.. but intend to change it to 2-3... hopefully can.
today.. has been not too bad.
and i miss him.
i think i am such an idiot. i am always missing him. always wan to see him. always damn happy to see him.. but when i AM with him physically, i always get angry easily... like angry over tiny little things. like wat's wrong with me?! spoiling the whole event! spoiling the whole date... = (
something is seriously wrong with me.. why can't i be more patient with him.. i feel so digusted by myself sometimes. sigh. like i am abusing him or sth.. coz' whenever i am sad or angry, he will be totally lost... which irritates me further.. thinking after so long, why he still dun understand me. WAT'S WRONG WITH ME!? sigh. torturing the guy i really love. am i sick in the mind?! argh!
he's outfield once more. really pity him.. it's like he's been sleeping very very little last week.. and he booked out on sat afternoon at about 3.. then booked in at 8pm.. then sunday got tt 21km run.. and then after tt met me for awhile.. then go home and get ready for booking in by 8... and there he is.. somewhere in the jungle.. 4 days outfield this time..
= (
missing ppl.
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4:27 AM.
