dinno stella has started blogging again.. after so long...

anyway, one of her entries touched my heart a little. it wasn't a touching kind of feeling, but its like a hammer, knocking on my head, a knife stabbed into the heart kind of feeling. like shaking me real hard to wake me up or sth.. i feel that i am those ppl she was talking about.. and i feel that i am one of those ppl who trying hard to portray the really goody goody side of myself in front of others. telling others the ONLY right thing, doing the right things.. i may not wan to do so, but still, i will always say and do it.. hope others to think tt i am somewhat a GOOD, friendly person. and i din wan to show any flaws to others... trying to hard to get into the saint-category.. sigh. hidng my devilish side...

guess its time to reflect a little...

or i think i know why.. i think i am just too desperate for attention. too desperate for others to like me...

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