Wishing UpON a sTAR
was studying Fna.. then eat lunch and slacked till now..
kind of revised till chapter 11, left with 12 and 14.. and there after, i mat attempt to do the exam paper..
anyway, the past few papers are alright. hope not ot screw them up, and get my ideal grades. but then.. they are kind of changed, since i had done the actual paper... so they are the currently attainable standard. ^_^ (result of studying too much FNA) haha.. so me as a manager of my grade, i better try my best.
alright, gotta remind myself about my currently attainable standard
MA1102- S (sigh. think i may actually get an A-, but then, i have smartly S/U the module)
IT1801- B+
BSP1005- B+
MNO1001- B+
FNA2002- B+
sigh, hope i can get an A- for one of the module though. all the best for myself. hahahha..
and guess wat, my coldsore still down there!! tot it supposed to be subsided in 4-5 days. sigh. it's been 5 days. YES, note that i call it cold sores, not herpes or watever. coz i dun like that name.. THAT made me sound as though i really have STD, all thanks to stupid JACCHOW.
traumatising.
having herpes is like one of the most traumatising thing i have experienced in life. it's like i've always been quite kind, timid, polite, careful, or watever u can describe me.. i seriously have no idea where do i get it from. not from eugene, samantha, jac.. these are the few ppl i usually shared drinks or food! but they DUN HAVE HERPES!!!and i hope that i din transmit to them...
SIGH.. i feel so alienated from the society. sometimes i feel like i am an outcast too. it's like i am wearing a sign that " I AM HIGHLY CONTAGIOUS", "STAY AWAY FROM ME". and that thing on my lips made me feel so inferior. whenever i am out, i am like covering it from books/ notes/ things in my hand... tell me that i need not be so miserable. face it bravely.
and my ans to u is- u won't get it. and tell me who is that asshole having outbreak, still share drinks or food with me?!
i hope it will heal soon. hope it will subside soon. hope it will never come back. hope i wont' spread to ANYONE.
pls be healed by tml, sunday or monday, or any day says SOON...
dear lord, now that i have herpes..
i hope u can watch over me..
if u've been listening, i prayed every night,
praying that u can watch over my family, and all my friends. people around me
and
you did.
just that i forget to pray for myself,
and u really din...
now that i pray for myself too, together with this group of people...
hope u can watch over my family, friends and I..
take care of us..
thanks..
amen
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2:39 PM.
