Wishing UpON a sTAR
sigh...
sad mood
been in depressed, sad mood since the fall..
thinking of switching course to nursing.. dun like business. hope God will guide me.. tell me His plan for me.. and answer my prayer..
6 days... with all the painful, tormenting wounds... tedious dressing of wounds.. and crippling around... sigh.. how long will this last... hate it.. i feel all so useless..
somebody just asked me if my bf is super xin teng about the fall.. the thing is.. i dun think so.. = ( everybody is like showing me overwhelming concern.. but then.. just not him.. why not him.. he din even call or haven't seen the state i am in... u know the first thing i tot of was calling him when i fell.. but i knew he wouldn't pick up.. coz' he should be outfield.. = ( so i sms him.. i needed somebody to hug me.. telling me things were fine.. when waikit's gf was cleaning my wounds, i secretly wished eugene was by my side, so perhaps he would reduce the pain inflicted or sth.. somehow, i just felt that if he's around, things would be better... tears fell as the pain penetrated into every part of my body.. shuttering every single cell inmy body.. and finally piercing into my heart.. i swallowed the scream...
sigh.. why is he always so busy... again.. where is he when i need him?
7 days since i last talked to him on the phone for more than 10 mins... the day before he went outfield..
8 days since i last seen him.. saw him in church.. and he went to watch movie with other church mates after dinner..
15 days since i last spending quality time with him... sigh
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8:24 PM.
