Wishing UpON a sTAR
can't believe that i just woke up.. haha.. 1140am.. oh well.. let me clarify. haha.. i am not a PIG! i woke up at 5+ to send my brother to airport with mom. he's going china for am exchange programme for a week. so SUPER exciting!!! anyway, ya, we had breakfast there, and then.. reached home at.. say.. 10? haha.. and i just continue to sleep till just now..
feeling better after talking to jac and jing.. yawnz... and studying with chinru is productive.. except for that 30mins when i was talking to mr ong.. HE'S SO TOTALLY CRAPPY.. telling me to tell everybody tt he loves everybody.. and everybody loves him.. so lame. i almost died controlling myself from laughing out loud in the LIBRARY... mr ong is so MR-ONG.. the same old mr ong.. ^_^ bring back good memories...
however, after that, felt like eating hot fudge sundae.. but nobody want to eat with me.. and all of the sudden, when i was all alone, i was back to the square one.. the tiny lonely world of mine.. i just felt dejected, rejected, and lonely. kids giggling happily around me, couples exchanging sweet talks nearby, friends crapping in a distance... but i felt so totally indifferent... like i dun belong to the world they are living in.. i felt isolated.
and i tot just flashed into my mind, "i hate seeing couples on the street." i think i am nut.. sigh.. need to get myself out of this mindset soon... i dun wan to harm anyone around me... indirectly or directly...
blogging is something good i guess.. u can use all sort of analogy, song lyrics, quotes to jot down the mood u're in.. without meeting or telling your friends directly.. especially when u dun meet them often..at last they got to know bits about your life.. maybe not the full picture, but at least, bits of it... better than not bothering to know anything or dunno anything even when u care.
eileen~ wednesday i meet u from 2-4 k?
going to bedok later to give tuition and study in bedok library later.. sigh.. need to pick myself up.. if not, nobody can help me.. just like friends around.. when love isn't enough to make them strong.. and when love isn't there to support them anymore.. when love is replaced by commitment and nothing else...
dear Father Lord, i pray that you will look after all these souls.. even they dun have faith in you... u're kind and have a big heart... u will, even when u're not entitled, told to or ought to.. dear Lord, guide us well and give us a direction to follow.. so we will not be lost.. so we can pick ourselves up again and not be in despair... show us that the world is meaningful under your care, show us that we are part of the world, and it needs us to make it a more beautiful place.. thanks, dear Lord.. *Amen..
on a happier note, i will be meeting eugene on friday night... *cheered up a little
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