Wishing UpON a sTAR
so... wednesday was my birthday... and yet... i have a really unhappy week..
shall start with 21 i guess.. since i din elaborate much on it..
21st Jan, i was supposed to meet eugene to celebrate my birthday.. i wore nice clothes, spent a month to decide on just where to eat... and then, at 6+pm, he messaged me tt he couldn't make it, coz' tt day was his grandma's birthday.. sigh.. so feeling duped, i went home... sadly. eugene was tired whole day.. we din even manage to have proper sms conversation.. he fell asleep here and there.. i was rather disheartened.. and well.. marcus urged me to call him.. at least to disscue the next day's make-up lunch.. sigh... but i didn't do tt.. i guess.. just forget it.. just let him rest well ba...
22nd Jan, i met eugene with heavy heart, determined not to forgive this eugene and to show him black face. AND, as usual, i failed expectedly.. i couldn't angry at him for long.. actually not only him, but most of the ppl... almost everybody. but well.. we had lunch at billy bombers finally. and we kind of toured around singapore on tt day.. which i tot was good.. coz' we spent more time together.. and we rented vcd home to watch from sengkang..and he went home at 6+... and he basically ran home. coz' i saw him running to somewhere when he's downstair.. well, can see tt he's trying to spend more time with me.. sweet...
anyway, my mom also told me to buy a cake for my chinese birthday, coz' she's too busy to buy one. and.. i bought straawberry shortcake~ ^_^ i was so enthu to eat it... but we din eat it that night.. mom was busy talking to sister and liyue anutie, chunlong was sick.. and everybody simply forgot the cake in the refrigerator... and i told mom about the cake at 11+pm.. and said, nvm... but... my heart practically broke.. coz' it seemed like they dun really care... about me... =( and i remember i cried quite alot on that night...
sigh.
23th Jan- bored to death. and finally ate the cake at 7+... and we din wait for my brother.. coz' he still slowly coming home from school.. he told me he will be back by 7pm.. but he ended up reaching home at 9pm... =(
24th Jan- woke up by the retarded beeps of my SAMSUNG phone at 4am. it was like autocharging itself, and making funny noises.. so i just took out the battery and dumped it aside. decided to bring the phone for evaluation...
went to senglang library to spend my morning reading chinese novel.. bought a pair of heels at Metro.. MY FIRST PAIR OF HEELS! ^_^ then, ate at mac, went to TM.. and ya... -the end-
25th Jan- nightmare of the week. the only sweet thing tt happened that day was tt eileen celebrated my birthday at science... was really touched, din know wat to say.. coz' she actually bought this slice of chocolate cake from coffee house for me.. she sang the birthday song loudly too~ and she did a solo! sweet.. really glad for wat she did.. coz' even sam, stella, those tt i considered closer friends din go to tt extent to celebrate for me..
Thanks, eileen! love u!
26th Jan- honey's birthday. i was fully jealous when i saw how the archit ppl celebrate for pretty hannee... but well.. wat's there to compare about.. sigh. anyway, i had GREAT night with linus, ailing, jing, spas, boss and honey tt night.. they celebrated for us at fish & co.. i was thoroughly touched by them.. they made my birthday less miserable..
27th Jan- busy, and went to collect my phone. and the stupid phone will cost me $372 if i will to repair it. retarded. i may as well buy a new one. and then.. had a minor quarrel with my parents over an sms my sister sent to me from uk.. i repeat, tt wasn't my fault. really. and i dun get the fish why they care so much for her.. must they call her EVERYDAY? and it's like only she can be busy, and i can't. wat the fish is this... total bias.
28th Jan- went to service at 10am.. was late.. coz' was helping mom to do some housework.. anyway, before i left she said sth hurting to me... which make me upset till now.. and i miss eugene's hug... =(
maybe i am really over-sensitive.. maybe i am really thinking too much.. but i wan to let u know tt the reason why i think so much, was probably becoz' u really meant alot to me. i dun wan to lose u at all. and i dun wan my mom to show any disliking to u... but why did u act so indifferent to the whole thing.. u mean this really doesn't bother u at all... = ( then i am speechless.. u asked me then how, i answered u then nothing to say. wat's there to talk about when u dun bothered?
dear, i dun have the confidence like u. i dun have such a strong faith like u about us being together forever. but i do love u.. from the bottom of my heart...
sorry peeps, i wasn't in the birthday mood, and neither am i in new year mood...
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11:11 PM.
