Wishing UpON a sTAR
finally spent one whole day from 1:45pm- 11:25pm with eugene... ^_^ though we were not always alone, the idea is there.
recap for wat had happened this week...
basically i rot the whole week at home, coz' my part -time has not started... haha.. so sian! whole day just played monopoly again and again to make the stupid pc players go bankrupt. hahaha.. crap. watever it is, i grasped the skill to make others bankrupt in the fastest way. ^_^ yay!!
then.. hmm.. another thing is that... sat i had church service, and i finally attended my first cell group.. which turned out not as good as expected.. hmmm... the cell group itself is good.. as in, i learnt things, etc.. but it's the committment and responsiblity they have on me is too great... felt kind of.. hmm.. pressurized.. sounds bad har? not sure.. but... the very idea of me, going for evangelism.. (watever the spelling of the word is) just freaks me out.. totally.. i am not even a true christian.. how can i invite/pass on my knowledge of Christ to the others?! the whole thing just sounded ridiculous to me.. totally.. really.. perhaps i need more time to absorb it.. but.. i got no more time! coz' the thing is going to be on saturday!? there isn't even time for me to reconsider.. and it's certainly a compulsory thing.. sigh.. pardon me.. but i really feel.. TRApped.. no where to run to.. i dunno who to turn to.. talked to eugene about it... though he seemed to have understand me a little.. din solve the problem and cleared the cloud in me.. and i dun wan to talk to anyone else in the church.. that's bad.. sigh..
oh, on sat, i only ate my lunch at 3... din have my breakfast.. just had a cup of fruit juice from snapple.. and i got lost on my way to church. how fantastic. hahaha.. to make things better, i din have the chance to see eugene parade in his no 1 uniform.. sigh!
so we shall talk about today ya? since saturday wasn' such a great day for me.. today is.. overall is great, just that.. hmm.. there are certain unpleasant moment.. hmm.. ok, before i start, just want to tell u guys NOT TO LAUGH at the following content.. coz' come to think of it, it's quite ridiculous. hmm.. anyway, i cried today in front of eugene (FIRST TIME K) coz' i felt so super stressed about the commission ball.. i mean.. sigh. speak of the truth, i am not pretty la. it's impossible to make an ugly duckling to become a swan over night.. such story dun exist in the reality... no matter how pretty and beautiful is a gown, when i wear it, ck will still be ck.. i won't become prettier.. =( eugene said i got low self-esteem.. but really.. i just lost the confidence i used to have.. sigh~ last time so fat also act pretty. hahaha. now, thinner already, worse, feeling ugly.
and the best part is.. i CRIED until my contact lens shifted! one stuck to the bottom of my left eye.. another folded up on the top of my right eye.. crap.. had difficulty removing both out.. (AND DAMN IT, THE ARE NEW. I JUST OPENED THE BOX TODAY!) anyway, feeling BLIND, i went to this shop called LOOKGOOD or sth.. the salesman was really really sweet.. i told him that i dropped a side of the contact eyes.. and another one is folded.. he sercetly went to dig and passed a pair to me! so super sweet! he then told me not to let his manager knows. told me to go toilet to put it on. DAMN SWEET! i met a nice guy! ^_^
then.. after all the crying and the contact lens rubbish, we went to take photoshots.. i feel like taking wedding photos. ahaha.. so funny. crap. must pose and smile.. tite ur head to the left.. chins up.. hahaha. .so FUNNY! anyway, the piuc turned out to be not bad. and.... it looks like i have a plastic face.. hmm... and eugene looks NOT Bad, quite different when he wears the no 1 uniform.. HOWEVER, coz he was bare footed. ahahha.. that destroyed the whole image. ahahaha.. but nvm la. still pass.
after that.. rushed to airport to send his frens off.. ate swensen for dinner.. eugene's parents sent me home. ^_^
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ahaha.. oh man.. i think i really need stella's help.. miss her sooooooooooooooooooooo much. going to totally depend on her for my outfit+ make up for the commission bad... sigh.. lucky stella coming back tml! yay!!!
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