Wishing UpON a sTAR
i dunno wat's wrong with me anymore...
for the past few days, i turned the alert for incoming message off... not even vibration, or light... i was thinking, by doing so, i can be not bothered by the handphone.. and won't have to wait endlessly for eugene's message...
but i am wrong..
until now, i kept checking my hp.. hoping that perhaps he will message me... and he din.. and my heart sank..
why he din message me...? just type a message was that very time consuming....? = (
i kept thinking of all the possible reasons... but
all are related to his friends, his PC games.. his TV...
or am i not important to him anymore...?
wat's wrong with me.. can somebody tell me...?
why is that i feel that he's drifting away from me.. why is that i feel that he's taking me for granted... why is that i dun feel secure anymore... why is that i am always anxious about this and that... why...... can somebody enlighten me?
i dun wan to see myself becoming like this..
i bet eugene must be thinking that i am damn possessive... but... will he feel that.. coz' i feel that he care no more for me..
= (
stella, i am not having moodswing.. but i am really sad.. i hate myself for those.. coz' even i can't stand myself...
i've been trying to read bible, so as to distract myself from checking my hp.. it helps.. but surely i can't keep reading my bible, right...? i need to read my TEXTbooks... but i can't concentrate..
= (
i am really sad.. is there anyone understand me now...? is there anyone understand how i feel now...?
mr horsey said this is a dangerous period for couples.. 1 year plus...
my buddiest buddy told me give eugene more breathing space.. and dun ask too much from him... try to give way and understand each other...
but i think.. i am not sure if i understand eugene anymore... = (
i need help.. coz' if this continues... i think i will go mad... = (
|
|ck|
6:07 PM.
