Wishing UpON a sTAR
busy week. i had a really busy week.. and i think the coming week is no better.
annoying, irritating. i am not even the leader. i dun undersdand why was everybody asking me for agenda for the meeting on thursday on wednesday night. feeling irritated by everyone, i took the initiative to come out with the agenda, and planned some stuffs. everything SEEMED fine, when jac starting to bombard me, questioning by organisational skill. i was so pissed coz' she wasn't even there for the meeting. and i tot me and sam HAD communicated with her. YET, she seemed too stubborn to get the idea into her brain. feeling totally infuriated by her, i refused to reply her sms. ^_^
had genes and society test yesterday. tot it was fine. i mean, there are bound to have some dunno-how-to-do questions, some should-be-this-answer questions and there are some EASY questions. so ya. i wasn't affected at all by the test.. but was not very happy coz' i interpreted okasaika fragments wrongly. coz' ALL along, i tot it's a RNA primer. but it was actually some tagging strand of DNA. crap. so my concept was totally wrong in the place! can't believe it!
hmmm... went home after that for a little rest after having lunch with the girls~ davina as pretty as forever and ps as COMPLAINING as forever. HAHAH... good that some things just dun change.
*exhansted
had a great time in eugene's church during the service and dinner. tot the pastor was rather inspirational. to tell u the truth, i really dunno wat's stopping from believing Him, wat's hindering me from allowing myself to get close to Him. hmmm.. guess i need to find out myself.
was rather pissed with eugene last night.. first he irritated me by telling everyone tt i am ugly. fine, i know i am NOT as pretty as any other crushes he had, but can't he just give me some face?! AND, which gf dun like to be praised!? damn it. the whole can think that i am ugly, but he CANNOT! and of coures, if the world thinks i am pretty, that would definitely be bonus. ahahhahaha... but still! he shouldn't said i am NOT pretty! second, he ignored me when i was talking to him.. he was totally engrossed with some trailer. i was standing RIGHT beside him, talking to him but i seemed invisible. and i hate it. i mean, i know i am abit petty. BUT look, we dun usually meet, and we dun have much time to go out one-on-one. can't he just like put more forcus on me when we are out? and pay more attention on me, instead of looking around?! i hate it. i mean, REALLY, we dun have much time together.. can't he just show that he cherish it or sth? i do look forward for all our dates. and i DUN look around, i admit when i go out with him, i dun even bother to look at other guys.. i am not saying he should be like me... but he should SHOW me that.. i am.. somewhat.. more important? i dunno WAT'S that word to be used la.
*sigh
he's going australia on 16th October till 11th November. i'd told him that when he come back, i'll either be with other guy or have become a skeleton (starved myself to death/ exercised vigorously). of course, by judging at his gigantic ego, he knows that i would become a skeleton rather than with other guys. yes, he's that confident. he's confident in me, in himself, in God. and wat he said is rather true. but whatever it is, i just hope that i can handle the thing calmly. coz' i got a feeling that i am going to have a major depression/ major moodswing during that time.. and i need to find ways to prevent this from happening... i have to. coz' after his NS, he will be going overseas to study. for 4 years.
*sigh.. as i always said to eugene, having a bf is just to irritate myself.
i dunno whether i can tolerate with this.. i just hope i have the strength.. and i hope he understands my feeling.. but.. i won't tell him. coz' whenever i am not happy, i will just kept quiet. as in, really quiet. how do i tell him this... sigh...
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11:50 AM.
