Wishing UpON a sTAR
when i am upset, is my mood-swing the only reason behind...?
i am not upset about eugene's leaving.
at least i have not started to miss him really badly yet.
but i tot
yes, i tot
u joined funka becoz' of me...
i din wan to quit earlier was becoz' of u...
now that i have finally quitted,
dun u think i have the responsiblity to inform u...?
how would u feel if i din inform u about it?
and keep u in the dark?
will u feel left out?
will u feel neglected?
or
u simply dun care?
mustering all courages,
summing up all my thoughts,
i made that decision..
and the first person i wanted to share this
is u..
but
do u care?
do u bother?
do u bother?
instead,
u're telling me that's not the point.
trying so hard to change topic
"how r u?"
"how u coping since eugene left already?"
"u having mood-swing, are u?"
the last question is undeniably hurting..
just becoz u read my blog,
know about my temper
witness my emotions
- sad, joy, anger, jealousy,
learn about my mood-swingand
there u're..
....
one is i proclamied ziji
one is i regarded as buddy, best fren
both used to know me so well..
and i tot
i used to know both so well..
but
things changed
both are doing things behind my back
hiding things from me
thinking i do not know...
i am not against the thing between u two.
but can't u just be open about it?
why must hide from me?
why....?
wat u guys treating me as?
a moody person?
especially u...
my buddy..
do u see me as a person who is only capable of mood-swing...?
*hurt
*hurt
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5:45 AM.
