Wishing UpON a sTAR
guess it's time for blogging again... life is like as usual, lonely and tiring.. well, but of coures, at the same time, i had few discovery here and there... and i kind of categorise into groups, yes, using stratified sample tt is. haha.. well, i learnt this from coping rx's tutorial, not from not lecture...
Friends whom really care for me (as in REALLY)- stella, eileen, .... (sigh.. is there no more?)
Friends whom care for me coz' i happened to be their friend- dawn, sam, carol...
well, and there were many close frens.. but as time passed, things change like i said..
linus, jingying, ailing, hannee, marcus, chiteng, qinru, etc...
and i thought, this is quite saddening, coz' i simply can't think of any more names.. coz' for the rest, are really.. acquaintants... just like, though i am always with rx, but she dun really talk to me.. and there are times, when she saw her friends, she will just walked away, to be with them.. yes, left me tagging behind that is...
sigh.. i guess my depression is still on, though i've been telling others tt i am fine... and talking to marcus like old buddy remained me that i was once really popular.. to think that I WAS POPULAR made me happy, but then again, why i keep dwell on the past glory?! wat's matter is NOW.. as in really now... ya.. sigh... how do i move on... how do i live for the present and face the uncertain future...
sigh... yes, i am not really fine. i am still unhappy inside. and yes, i am not used to be a loner.
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