Wishing UpON a sTAR
yawnz.. been working over-time for the past few days.. worked until l10pm everynight.. come home and did house chores until 1+.... and i am collapsing now..
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but then.. everybody says, "u never show abit of exhaustion.." though i am like fainting and half dead.. everybody thinks i am still energetic and fit.. but then again.. when u work, u supposed to put in all ur best, right? perhaps this is where i get all my satisfaction in life.. to complete some tasks, be it small or big.. i am a workaholic. no denial.
i am better now.. i mean.. like wat linus said.. if i still like him alot and dun wan to break up with him AT ALL.. i should accept him and... the fact tt he will never put me as his top priorty... and if i want somebody who can do tt, he would never be eugene.. sigh... and all i can do now is to see how things go and accept him.
sigh.. sounds bad.. but i can't do anything. i have no INTENTION to break up with him.. really... never even tot of it..
though i am seriously tired becoz of the things tt eugene did which made me sad.. and it's really not very nice to have "a while of happiness and getting myself hurt again and again and again..."
i feel tattered sometimes.. it kind of strained all my energy.. it's like.. sipping away without me noticing it.. BUT, i still never tot of break-up.
anyway, back to office.. everyone in the office think i am always in bad mood.. why ar? just becoz' i didn't smile and concentrate in my works? i mean.. u dun smile when u working hard and paying attention, right? it's so ridiculous... keep saying i have a black face and stuffs.. and i am not like them, as though they are working in playground, never treat things seriously. and i can't stand it. i am a perfectionist in this matter i guess..
yawnz.. i am tired.. and i am going to sleep now.. yawnz..
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4:40 AM.
