Wishing UpON a sTAR
oh well.. things are going really bad... at least tt's wat i think...
was damn irritated with eugene in the weekend, coz' he totally forgotten tt we were supposed to go out.. and he ended up going with with his friends... was upset and stuffs.. made an excuse to go to the supermarket to buy stuffs.. end up tearing on the way back and fro.. pathetic.. i was in a state of self-pity.. he doesn't seem to care and bother to rem wat i say.. and his excuse is- he can't explain.. and followed by saying- when many things jumble up together, it's hard to rem things.. i feel sad.. coz' i know though i am not his first priorty.. i mean i know i will never be. but i expect him to at least rem.. abit? at least bits and pieces...
anyway, i went to K L with a heavy heart.. kept thinking non-stop of stuffs...
dun ask for break-up when u know u still love him..
dun be like me if u're not ready for a breakup..
sigh..
and things become... MORE complicated when he got accepted by the MOE scholarship.. and would be going overseas to study chem and bio... oh well.. wat more can i say?
i am supposed to meet this evening, but he postponed it without telling me why.. i would have guessed it.. it would be church dinner to celebrate his scholarship.. when i recevied the sms about he not able to make it on sat, my heart sank.. it was like freezing in strong, cold wind.. i tot it would stop beating for seconds... i could even shiver from the coldness.. and i hate this. then, i know, i felt terribly sad...
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4:25 PM.
